Tapering

I don't want to blog about only milestones...

Here is the crappiest part I've encountered so far: the part where you DON'T get to run.

I know. WHAT?

You'd think it'd be a relief not to have to do my super-long run on Sundays now. Actually, I wasn't supposed to run last Sunday, and I went out and did it anyway. But today I won't, because last night my friend looked me dead in the eye and said "TAPER!", to which I said "Fine, fine, alright already!"

Then he asked me if I was excited about my race in 1 week.

No... I'm not excited. What is excited? Is it looking forward? Is it wanting to do something eagerly? I don't feel these things... I'm going to turn up in the morning of the race feeling anxious and cold, probably. I'm not sure how I feel about it, really. I haven't been thinking about the actual race too much, except when I'm out on the trails, running hills, thinking "Ah, the elevation, it won't be like this, it'll be different", and wondering about how fast I'm going to be able to go. I want to go fast, no lie.

Then he asked me about my race plan.

What race plan?

No, shut up, I know about race plans. Sort of. My plan is to run the race. And eat and drink stuff along the way...? That's... I just can't focus on that kind of information. I don't understand it. I mean... I ate some gummies on my longer runs lately, and I also tried a Stinger waffle, and the difference was, I hated the waffle because it was dense and gross. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely feel the difference between having nothing, and having my small snack and handheld water bottle along with me. But having a plan to eat this at that time, or do certain things... it doesn't register with me.

I'm just... urgh. I'm happy that someone is coming along to support me on this, but also, my traditional method of operation is to go out with both feet and just let me fuck this up on my own terms already.

Is this what it is to have friends? So inconvenient.

(I jest. I'm grateful for the support of friends. I'm just not used to it, and it makes me crabby and anxious to rely on other people when I'm fucking up).

(I'm trying to get used to community and support. I signed up for a local run club... and then got work scheduled for every night that they meet. WHY).



Anyway. Tapering.

My legs are achey so I am glad not to be running today. Actually my whole body feels like hell, I'm not been doing well lately. I ate my breakfast, and I'm going to do some workouts from darebee.com... I think I found them on Tumblr? Someone told me recently about November Project, which although it sounds awesome, it also sounds like everything that I hate (sweating in the freezing-ass cold, group hugs, huge masses of people, shouting)... I'm tempted to try it once anyway, just to see. From what I see on Darebee, you can hit the same levels by ramping up how much you do. The only trick is that you have to motivate yourself instead of relying on a group. I've got the Chase workout and the Imperator Furiosa workout printed out.

Anyway. Gosh. The time flew by from writing.

Thanks for reading